One Single Life.

I have only this
This one single life.
And in it I found you
The One.
Who is complete.
Who is beautiful.
Who is perfection.
Who taught me
To be strong at last.
To be a man.
To be your man.

I have only this
This one single life.
And in it I lost you.
You flailed your arms,
You begged my acceptance,
You strove to appease me
You broke yourself again and again
To be strong at last.
To be a Queen
To be my Queen

I have only this
This one single life.
And so I failed you.
So I am cast from you.
So I am directionless without you.
So I am cold when broken from you.
Now I break again and again.
Shivering in loneliness.
Around my neck chains of wrongdoings
Dragging my every footstep
To be a failure at last.

I have only this
This one single life.
And so I had told you
That our souls were joined
That I loved you
That you were The One.
Now I beg your acceptance
Now I strive to appease you
It is my turn to break again and again
To be strong at last.
To be a man
To be your man
To have your love forever.

I have only this
This one single life.

Finally. Broken.

The breath quickens
Upper cheeks heating up
My chest tightens
I squint, blinking, fighting

Cold breeze did nothing to help
My pace becomes frantic
At last, I turn the key
Shoving the door open, finally inside.

And then, a deep sigh
Instantly my eyes swell
My vision swimming
Tears flow in torrents down my face
Breaths so quick

Sobbing, wailing quietly
Uncontrollable convulsions
My face tightly contorting

Muscles tense, stretched hard
Stomach in knots, ripping
Heaving deeply, my rapid panting
My heart SHATTERS APART.

Status Redux.

I had a wonderful woman, who helped balance my whole world. Who wasn't perfect, because we all know no one is, but was perfect for me. She worked hard, she would do anything for me. She made me laugh and drove me crazy, she is my best friend, who I want to grow old with, who I am thankful for everyday, and who I couldn't live without. I want to brag about her a little and put this as my status, but I can't. My heart is broken and she is gone. A cold void now lies in her place, and my heart bleeds with agony as I lament her departure. Every sound in my life is a dirge, every colour has faded to grey. I fight tears every single day and finally have regrets in my life for the worst mistakes that I ever made. I have never loved anyone in my life as I do you. But I cannot put this as my status. So I keep this pain assigned to this virtual obsidian scrawl, the blood of my heart flowing down the page as these colourless letters...

The Flood Completed Me.

Your eyes filled with terror
Your body shook, trembling from the cold wind
But the waters rose, the rain smashing into the pavement

Your panic is rising to fever pitch
Fingers frozen numb, toes blue in cryosleep
Exhausted, we both work as one

Never have I so wanted to take away your fears
As we bail through the rising waters
The levels slowly approach that of irreversable damage

Then at last, a clarion, a heralding tone
Our saviour has arrived, an answer to our darknened tired eyes
He works his magic, the waters receding.

But never have I felt so victorious
Never have I felt so joined to another
Never have I felt so complete with another being.

Soaked, dirty and drained
My perfect queen, my ultimate love
I never wanted to let go of you.

Our flood provided me
With one of the most beautiful moments
A bond unparalleled.

Dreams.

To make love to you again now
Would shatter my heart
Into a million shards once more
But to hold you in my arms forever,
Would answer all my prayers
And make all my dreams come true.

The Silent Movie.

This pause, these moments
They bring memories
Beautiful, now painful,
You float back into my life

Your loving gaze surveyed me
Your slender arms enfolded me
Your breath warmed me
Your heart completed me.

Now it plays through my mind
Dusted and crackled, blurred
An old preserved film, a silent movie
Your words without sound

My heart aches, a painful beat,
I am directionless without you
My life unbalanced, incomplete
My wailing cries, soundless.

Dry my tears
And I will kiss your's
Bring love to my life
And I will to your's.

Love me
Forever.
I love you
Forever.