Outcast Fucker.

Unwantable
Untouchable
Loathable
Laughable
Despicable
Unattractive
Disgusting
Revolting
Unknowable
Unfriendly
Useless
Incapable
Talentless
Dumb
Stupid
A waste
Waste of time
Misunderstood
Undecipherable
Detatched
Not normal
Why can't you just be normal
Why can't you be like everyone else
Can't you decide what you want to be
Can't you do what everyone else does
Can't you just go along with it
Can't you just pretend
Loser
Idiot
Asshole
Wierdo
Strange
Bastard
Fuckwit
Cunt
Nigger
Oversensitive
Not man enough
A fucking girl
What's wrong with your skin?
What's wrong with your hair?
You have gross skin
I'd never touch you
I don't like your kind
I hate your body
I like someone with a better body
Selfish
Unloving
Inconsiderate
IgnorableForgettable

Invisible
Outcast fucker
I just want somone to like me
I just want you to love me
I thought I was good enough
Everyone walked away
Everyone still walks away
The Only One
Walked away.
Outcast again.
Repeat.

Acknowledgement.

In my ignorance I hurt you.
In my blindness I squeezed you,
As you gave me every ounce of love you had in your body
I squeezed harder, sapping the strength you had left.
Now I pay the price in grey loneliness,
An eternal shivering sufferance
For the biggest mistake of my life.
My broken heart has taken my ability to speak,
And I quietly carry my tears with each step.
But every day, my devotion never wanes
Silently, I lift my gaze skywards and I hope.
I dream, I wish that I will someday be forgiven
That some one, The Only One,
Will grant me the acknowledgement my error
And to give you what we each so desired:
That together, we could "be ourselves in a world
that is constantly trying to make us something else."

No Better Place.

The warmth of your skin in the morning
Absorbing the sun into your beautiful face
I've waited for about half an hour
Patiently for your gorgeous eyes to slide open

I move as close to you as I can
I just want to be in your arms forever
I don't want to let go, I'm so safe
So loved.

Every day I couldn't wait for you to enter the world
I never knew what I wanted to tell you
But I knew I always wanted to share something
I always wanted you to have some piece of me

Your gentle hands touching my face
Caressing my shoulders and chest
No place in the world is as beautiful
As being in my baby's arms

Have me
All of me
Take me into your soul
There's no place I'd rather be.

Trust.

There is no-one left in the world
That I can hold onto
There is really no-one left at all
There is only you
And if you leave me now
You leave all that we were
Undone
There is really no-one left
You are the only one

And still the hardest part for you
To put your trust in me
I love you more than I can say
Why won't you just believe?

- The Cure, "Wish" 1992

The Reunion.

Your slender arms
Slowly encircling me,
Your oceanic eyes,
Gorgeous long lashes,
Gently looking down at me
Your lips, pink
and beautiful in a smile
My heavy gaze
Looking up to meet yours
My tired eyes
Soaked, bloodshot,
My parted lips
Dry, parched
My breath is hot,
Fast, sobbing
Quicker, sobbing
Convulsing, heavy

Choking in my tears
Your gentle hands
Caress my tearstained cheeks
My body resigns
Spasms of grief
Face etched in agony
Stomach knotted in acid
Eyes screwed shut
Wails of pain
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
Never again
Never again
Never again
Please forgive me
Please forgive me
Please forgive me.

The Fiery Ascent.

You are the sun
Brilliant golden tresses,
You are the sky,
A startling blue expanse in your eyes
You are eternity, my love

Relentless heart drives my journey upwards
The wind dries, the burning begins
Blinded and seared by your shining beauty
I await your open arms to save me,
Before I burst downwards into flames again.Do I ascend towards you like Icarus?
Will I descend again crashing unsuccessful
To the earth on fire, charred and beaten?
Do I strive for nothingness?
Am I alone in this love now?

Coeur brisé (Broken heart).

Why again?
Why do my eyes well?
These tears,
These heavy droplets
Splashing to the earth.

My sobs evoking
So much love inside
So much pain
A black emptiness
Of life without you.

To see you run
When all I want to do is hold you
To stroke your golden mane
To kiss your beautiful moonlit skin
To drink in the ocean in your eyes

You run past
Escaping like a deer in headlights
I sit wounded in your shadow
Bleeding inside
Silently screaming in agony.