Breathe.

Draping eyes closed
Lashes sliding gently over each other
A soft breath
An inhale
Drinking in dreams of your golden hair
falling over my cheeks
Your pale autumn skin
melting onto my lips
An exhale
And you are gone
Leaving me alone
With tears streaming down my face
Longing for your slender limbs
to fold through me again.

For You.

Only You.

Forvever You.

And For No Other.

Right Where You Belong.

It doesn't matter

Where I turn

Who I speak to

Where I go

What I do

You're everywhere.

All over my thoughts

In every dream

Filling my heart with every beat.

Resignations.

I try so hard to push you out
The searing heartbreak
Anger of you running away once again
Alone at night, not having you there
No matter how hard I try
I can't stop loving you
I try so hard to push you out.

The Final Death.

I gave you everything I had to give
Your pain became mine
I tried to be a pillar when you needed it
And a room with space when you needed that too.

I bared my soul. I exposed every facet of my life to you.
I burned my heart countless times
Put aside my own ordeals and placed my love for you first
Every single time.

I never imagined a life without you.
No matter the challenges, my love never ebbed.
Never faded, never less potent.
It grew as I saw you take your gentle steps towards warmth

But now I'm broken
Your ghosts have shattered me
Smashed me into a thousand pieces of glass
Draining my heart of the blood I carried for your love.

Instead of the shining goddess
Lies a tattered dishevelled carcass
Clinging to life, disconnected from the world
Withered, black with a poison destroying everything in its path.

I still dream of your walk towards loving light
My hand in yours where I still wish it to be.
But now that time is lost.
Destroyed by your visions that never existed as I held my arms open for your embrace.

A dancing angel of blue sapphire you once were

Streaking through the sun

Now a sick cowering child in black obsidian.

Sinking into a dark abyss beyond the reach of anyone.