Honesty

I can feel myself
getting uncomfortable.
Now you know things.
I've rolled my sleeve up,
showed you some scar tissue.
Can you handle
what I have to give?
Are you ready
for the real thing?
To go beyond 
'just the idea'?

The Magical Ram

In just a short moment
you've crawled underneath
In just a few short hours
you've slipped through 
and exposed me.
Your vulnerability 
is my vulnerability
Your thoughts
are my thoughts
Every sentence you say
matches the beat of my heart
I feel your voice traveling 
right through my soul
My eyes want to spill
as I hand you the keys
I'm defenceless now,
open, waiting...

Circle of lights

A long time ago
I loved you with my all heart and soul
The years have passed and gently dulled it
into a memory with faint colourless echoes.
Instead of pain I feel thanks:
our crossing provided an opportunity,
a chance for me to look deeper into the mirror,
to grasp who I am, who I was meant to become,
and to begin to write a new chapter
with new characters and dreams.
Once a dark dead space lay lifeless,
and is now bathed with light, colours and a heart of fullness.
The glorious cycle of life from death is complete,
and only one certain thing lies beyond: 
anything I wish for to be or to not to be.

Blinding lights

All I ever wanted to do
Was to see you glorious
To bask in your brilliance
As we held each others hands.

A Full Cup

Sometimes I wonder:
- will I ever have room 
in my heart for another?
You've taken up 
all of it for so long.
 

Kane

Surrounded by red dust
and the blazing run
In the dry desert heat
we found each other

I followed you,
And you followed me.
I worshipped you,
You worshipped me

I'd break myself again
Bruised and battered,
You'd bandage me.
Saving me, over and over.

When I had no home,
You were my home.
When I was broken
You glued me back together.

Opposites and reflections
Enemies and twins
You are my brother
I love you Kane.

It's you, or nothing. So nothing it is.

Lithe, with a mane of gold

Silently gliding through the world
The breeze sliding over her fresh skin
A laugh forever echoes through my mind.

But wait:
Her laugh isn't your's.
She's not you.
None of them will ever be you.

Now all of them are nothing.
But you're everything.
I want nothing anymore.
Unless it's you.

Midnight In Paris.

Paris
The banks of the Siene at midnight
Our heels clacking on cobblestones
Lips melting over lapping silent waters
An inky sky wavering above us
Rolling silken like the shining sheets
Of the bed we fucked in that very morning
As we woke to wafts of fresh coffee
and hot breads rising in the new day's air

Paris
Our feet wandered you aimlessly
In its days of heat and cooling nights
You were there with me, squeezing my hand in yours
Ah, but now my love, you fucking ruin Paris,
A poison of interjection in every frame of my minds film
Je t'aime pour toujours et toujours
But when, when will you leave me
So at last so this city can be mine?

Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's not.

I never liked anyone as much as you.
I'll never like anyone this much again.
And it's over.
And this sucks.

Some Other Time.

Where has the time all gone to
Haven't done half the things we want to
Oh well, We'll catch up some other time

This day was just a token
Too many words are still unspoken
Oh Well, we'll catch up some other time

Just when the fun is starting
comes the time for parting
let's just be glad for what we had
And what's to come

There's some much more embracing
Still to be done but time is racing
Oh Well, we'll catch up some other time.

~ sung by David Fisher (Michael C Hall),
Six Feet Under Season 3 Episode 1.

Afraid.

A heart
blushing with warmth,
Is now numb.
Locked away,
buried deep from light.At peace with disconnect,
Shutdown, calmness.
Empty 
with nothing to give.
I'm drained, spent and parched.
"You changed me": now, I'm afraid. 
Too afraid to open again.

Scars.

Titles and phrases,
Notes played,
Words sung,
reminders of a broken heart.

Flee.

Watching.
Running after you.
Your mind swimming,
Your eyes in a daze,
The dizziness and panic setting in again.
Hot bile rising in your stomach.

Sobbing.
Sweat on your brow.
Rocking back and forth,
Convulsing vomit in each sob,
Heaving wails of burning acid.
No idea why.

Hands bound behind his back
So tight he bleeds
Unable to speak, unable to act
To do nothing but survey you
Your success to resist, your fight with no enemy,
Unable to change, unable to break out. 

He'll know the pain,
- one day his turn will come too.
The torturing observations.
The unanswered questions, sudden discard.
The loneliness, grey isolation,
Only his cries and a cold wind offer clarity...

... to the long circular marathon of thirty four years.
Pale cheeks crusted with dried tears,
Always looking over your shoulder
Always looking back,

No one ever comes close.

Running forever,
Running forever.

Missing.

Missing.
Missing from my life.
Missing from my embrace.
Missing from your lips.
This was never meant to happen.
Emptiness without you.
Empty.

Fallen Angel

Everyone I see reminds me of you
I keep turnin' round
Expectin' you to be there
I keep seein' our past
Through my looking glass
But fallen angel
Where are you now

After all these years
I remember the tears
When we parted you said
Don't forget me
You were ridin' so high
Now they're passin' you by
Girl I've never forgot you
Please come and get me

Livin' without you is
Hard enough anyway
But knowin' you're hurtin'
Makes it so much worse every day

I just wanna love you
Any way that I can
And watching you cry wasn't
Part of my plan

Tell me how did it feel
In your promised land
That you chose as
Your pain and your pleasure
A temporary sanctuary
Oh fallen angel
I'm your real treasure

~ words & music copyright Uriah Heep 1978

Untitled.

Wish I knew
How it came to this
Walking alone through the crowds
My hand empty
No warmth from you around

The last days
Blocked from my mind
Pain too great
I'm numb
Just can't cry.

Hear your echoes
See your face
Every day that goes by
Doesn't matter what I do
This love won't die

I'm sad, I know now
I can love only one other
My heart is bleeding
But you're gone,
Crying, screaming.

It's pointless
Thinking I could open again after this
You're the only One
My Queen of the sun
The only one I ever want to kiss.

Everyone else is just a pretender
None of them will ever be you
All alien, never a contender.
Sitting here looking at my baby's empty throne
Now it's done, without you I'm alone.

Your Hand In Mine.

A clear night of stars

of Explosions In The Sky.
Cold and shivering
I can feel the regret sinking in
That I want to tell you

- I can't fight this feeling anymore.
How I've felt all this time
That I don't want to be friends anymore
I want to be closer
I want to feel your warmth
Smell your skin, touch your face
Feel your slender waist in my arm
Listen to your voice in my ear
Bury my face in your hair
And tell you that all this time
I've been in love with you
I have to hug you one last time for now
Look you one last time in the eyes
Before I open the taxi door
And wrench myself away from you
From holding you for too long
Knowing that you'll know

That I want your hand in mine forever until I die.

Distance.

In the forced distance between you and me

in the words we say, or do not say to each other

I can safely love you.

~ Koraly Dimitriadis, "Love & fuck poems"

Run.

Run away from you

Running away from responsibility

Take me

As I am

Take me

From the sense of being free.

~ The Hummingbirds, "Run", Gone (EP) 1993.

Starvation.

Our love was like a hunger
Without it I'm starving.
A sketetal shell
Thinned and deadened
Empty without your lips to kiss.
I'd die for you
And without you I'm dying.