I do my best to hate you
To spit upon every memory of you in my life
Cursing on every word you ever wrote
Every time you ever said you loved me
I piss on you. Each second of each day my mind utters with venom
FUCK YOU.
In my mind I set fire to every moment you touched me
I abhor you. I want to despise you.
But I fail. I fail to push you away.
The greatest poison to ever touch my heart.
You have taken my ability to ever love again.
To ever love anyone but you. You haven stolen my life force, my energy.
I am ash and dust, blown away raging directionlessly
Depleted, cold with nothing for anyone.
But you. I hate that I fail to hate you.
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